Written by Lynda Dickenson
There are some days in a mother's life when the sun just doesn't seem to rise. We may have been disappointed by someone. Or maybe we're not feeling good about ourselves or about our relationships with others. Maybe we are just lonely. Whatever the reason, a cloud settles over us. Usually this cloud of gloom brings with a a refusal to be cheered up. In fact, if anyone tries to cheer us we grudgingly summon a ghostly smile and slide back into our pit of despair.This mood can be almost enjoyable. After all, our very lives are dedicated to the welfare of our husbands and children. Isn't fun to let them know it , along with how wronged we've been, regardless of whether it is or isn't their fault? Poor us.
Does this sound familiar? I confess I am to some degree an authority on this subject. It comes from firsthand experience. We are all affected by different circumstances. For some of us, something as simple as a cloudy day my touch off the blues. Fatigue ofter precedes them. Sometimes our mood is caused by someone who has spoken critically of us or a family member. This list is endless. The funny thing is that even when most of the reasons are legitimate, the resulting dejection isn't. It would be depressing enough if we were the only ones affected by our dark days. But like it or not, we are the hubs of emotional stability in our families. If our outlook is sunny, it is reflected in every member of our household. If, however, clouds of self-pity, gloom and despair hover over us, they also rain down on all who come near. The trouble with darkness is that it seems to be strong...denser...and deeper... than light. We are almost fooled into believing that is is just as it seems. But just as one small candle can dispel the darkness in an arena, so can the entrance of light into our souls dispel the bleak and dreary darkness lurking there. And how much greater that light- the light of the Lord- than one little candle...
The Lord is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid? When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foe attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident. One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell int eh house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at this tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the Lord.